The end of 2015

Time files, I never imagine myself for living for such a long time. This sounds ridiculous but I really have no idea. I used to imagine what I would be doing in the future when I was young and wanted to grow up so badly. My imagination and plan are all until the age of 21. It never happen to life after that, perhaps I got real busy and stop thinking about future. HAHA. It is God's grace. As I grow older, I tend to not plan so much or so detail about my future. Sometime, I couldn't even be sure of what I wanna achieve or do. I learnt to not be so self centered about my life. Although it is my life, it is not always just my life, just me. There are God, family and people I really appreciate. I try to be more flexible and putting them into my life. I am growing up, it is time to reduce the dependency and reliance on my parents. It is time to contribute and give people about what I have, although I didn't own much. 

The greatest achievement I got this year is that I felt contentedThere is no need to go with the flow/ trend to do whatever the society have given to us. There is no need to get drunk and party all night during the Christmas eve and new year eve. There is no need to impress everybody how you celebrate your day. It is more about the peace and joy in God. Count the blessing and know the right things to do, I don't see the clear picture of everything but I learnt to take one step at a time. I might get really grumpy at times but I will always get back to you, Lord. There is nothing more satisfying than You. 

There are something that counted as milestones in my life: 

1) I am really thankful for the life I am living right now. Honestly, it goes against my original plan but God have better plan, no doubt. I always wanna to travel further, live somewhere else that sounds far away from home, so it seems that I am living a more independence life, a more challenging and satisfying one. I never think about living in Kuching, it used to think that its a boring place. I was proven wrong.  I had fall in love with this city, the food, the street, the ambiance, the people and the life style. Never as cold as a big city but never failed to impress me with the local food and great people I meet. If it is in peninsula, I might not have the freedom to own a car & to travel around whenever I like.

2) I am really thankful for the course/ program I am studying. I used to think that I should be in biology field and study food nutrition when I was in secondary school. I used to think it is noble and admirable. However, I don't know myself or my future better than God. I am tired of all the biology and chemistry but I don't find a way out. I am really happy & contented with Finance. I never imagined myself in this field as well. If I were studying nutrition, I should be creaking my head what is this about, chemistry, and future job. Finance is actually my fourth choice but surprisingly it turned out to be the best among all. Luckily, I was not studying nutrition at UMS, I was not studying Accounting at Perlis. Every time when I listened to my friends sharing about their life in Perlis, I am really grateful that God didn't send me there. Accounting sounds like a more secure job but it is not my thing. Studying accounting as some option courses is more than enough. Everything just lead me to a more confidence conclusion after years: Finance & Kuching are just right. Thank God.

3)  I am really thankful for my family members, each and everyone of them, My parents are the greatest ever. They are always being very supportive on everything I do. They never interfere with my social life, they give me trust and confident more than I could ask for. They have been the inspiration of my life. I used to be biased and love my mother more, and used to think that my dad is cold. As I grow older, I love my dad more, I would say very much now. He is a wise man, He is calm and lovely. He sacrificed his need for our needs. He never say no when I wanna get a new pair of shoes, when I wanna get new clothes, or try something luxury. He is quiet, we didn't talk much when I was young so I didn't really understand him. As I am living alone in kuching, I started to realized how much he had sacrificed for me, and the family. How tough is life, how much he had sacrificed for me and the family to make us who we are today. He inspired me to serve and love God more. It is God that living in his heart that make him strong and lovely. No doubt, I love my mum too! so do my bro and sister :) My bro is more mature minded and I am happy and proud that he is doing good/ better. He prepared snacks for me the last time I was home, and he got all the flavor right, I am so surprised and pleased. Thank you. 

4) I am really thankful for the SEB scholarship. If I have told you about what had happened, you will say I'm really blessed. I know I don't deserve it, there are so many other excellent candidates out there but God gave it to me. I had always wanted a scholarship, it is like a achievement to be proud of. I applied for JPA after SPM and when I was in first year but I didn't get it. I was disppointed. I feel like there is no more chance for a scholarship as my uni life gonna end soon. I wouldn't be able to get any, no more. God opened a door for me last year, (ops, it is midnight of 2016). I randomly sent in my result as dad asked me to give a try. I was so surprised when I got shortlisted for interview. I almost failed to attend the interview because of the expensive air ticket but with God's grace I made it to the finalist. I was not very fluent in answering all the questions but again it is all grace.  Thank you, SEB. Thank you, my parents, Thank you Lord. 

5) I am really thankful I got to travel to Singapore last July. I swear it is not in my plan & really impulsive. Sister called me the other day and asked whether I wanna go to Singapore. I said yes but I need to save enough money. There is time constrain, I am afraid I couldn't make it but I really wanna go. And the monthly allowance of scholarship came in right, God make it happens, just perfect. I am really thankful for my parents supports, bro in law and sister support, brother companion. Thank God everything is just amazing and wonderful in Singapore. I love the city, as a traveler. It is clean, safe and people are civilized. I was so thrilled to see minion in USS, went to aquarium and safari. tried out the local bah kut teh and breakfast. Great travel companions and all the great memories we had. (Singapore travelogue will be updated soon). 

6) I am really thankful to be able to travel to central Europe last July. It is so surreal. Europe is always like a plan, a dream more than a real happening, Thank God I managed to save some money and parents' support. When things you only see on web and books came into real life and were right in front of you, it is just so surreal. Vienna, Krakow, Hungary, Florence, Amsterdam, Berlin, Cambridge, Edinburgh, Rome, Venice and many more. Thank God for the travel companion, Kulay siblings are really lovely and fun. They are thoughtful and kind, couldn't ask for more. 

7) I am really thankful for great partners in serving. It used to be a burden to serve, for me. I had thewrong mindset and always try to avoid serving. God changed me. He sent angels, pastors, coworkers and lovely cell group members. Thank God I stayed although I felt like leaving, thank God for the great pastor who always inspire and encourage. Thank God for the great coworkers, I am not a great leader but your kind act and love really touched my heart and changed my soul. HAHAHA!Thank God for great memories in last year serving in uni life. Thanks for the surprise and all the good words said. 

8) I am really thankful for being single. This is awkward but yeah. There are times when I got confused, I felt lonely and miserable. For those who came and left, thank you. Thank you for making me a better person, a more mature minded and a more tender person. I learnt to believe in God, his time will never go wrong. I know I am in a good hand. Equip myself to be a better person. 

9) I am really thankful for all the ups and downs in my life. It is more about good things than bad things happened to me in 2015. Really thankful for that. Things happened for a reason. Take it as a lesson and opportunity to learn. God is good all the time, all the time God is good. Amen. All the things made me who I am today. I learnt to be optimistic because God's plan is always unfathomable and great. 

10) I am really thankful for a great bunch of people around me. Although we ain't bro and sis in Christ, but I appreciate everyone of you as family. There is nothing much I can pay for all your good deeds, I just wish you could accept the best gift in life, Salvation from God. See you in heaven one day. 

2015 has been a great year to me, the greatest ever! Thank You Lord, Thank You People! xoxo